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  Of the almost dead

  And the quiet march of Lice

  Gave cadence to this concert of sacrifice

  For

  Freedom

  THE GOLDEN SHOVEL POEM

  they eat beans mostly, this old yellow pair

  —From “The Bean Eaters” by Gwendolyn Brooks

  At the Evening of Life

  I wonder if they

  See the evening of life as a treat to eat

  Or as a staple like beans

  With corn bread mostly

  A good warming meal this

  Daily day old

  Bread pudding love capped sunshine yellow

  By an honest upstanding pair

  MORGANTOWN, WVA

  (Haiku for Ethel and Lucy)

  Pinto Beans Fried Corn Bread

  Clean Spring Water Rocking Chair

  Your Smile Home Peace

  FOR SONIA SANCHEZ

  In the name of those incredibly Brave men and women

  who made the Trek from Freedom in Africa to Enslavement in America

  and maintained their humanity

  through unspeakable acts

  In the precious name of Phillis Wheatley

  who was put on Academic Trial

  forcing her to prove she wrote her own Poems

  to the confident Paul Laurence Dunbar

  who kept the plantation tongue alive

  In the Brave name of W. E. B. DuBois

  who studied The Atlantic Slave Trade

  to Jessie Fauset

  who wrote children’s stories

  In the name of the incomparable Langston Hughes

  who taught us

  The tom-tom cries and

  the tom-tom laughs

  to the anger of Richard Wright

  In the name of the Honesty of James Baldwin

  In the fearlessness of Margaret Walker

  to the beautiful poems of Gwendolyn Brooks

  In the name of the awesome Toni Morrison

  And the truly wonderful spirit of Rita Dove

  In the names of those whom we silently call

  and in the names of those whose names will call us

  in the future

  This is for

  Sonia Sanchez

  FOR HAKI MADHUBUTI

  Words are the lifeblood of writers. Though I must admit I don’t know if we dream in words or if we word our dreams.

  Words are like quilts. You have to put a bunch together to make something warm and comforting or patch together something that will prick and scratch the spirit. No matter how we weave this experience, we sculpt an idea and shape a phrase.

  A phrase. Usually we find phrases to describe whatever it is. No word is sufficient to stand alone. Not even strong words like FREEDOM or soft words like LOVE. They all are better when added to . . . for example FOR ALL . . . or Je t’aime. Love phrases work in all languages.

  The human experiment has turned on many important phrases WE THE PEOPLE, taxation without representation and even things like REMEMBER THE MAINE. There are other political phrases like LIBERTÉ, ÉGALITÉ, FRATERNITÉ. I especially like WE SHALL OVERCOME. There are personal phrases like Yes. Which may be the only one-word phrase we ever use. No requires a bit more. There are personal phrases such as You Look Beautiful and I am so proud of you but maybe that’s a sentence not a phrase.

  The human imagination is the engine that has carried us from caves in Europe, from the rain forests of South America, from the lush and mineral-rich lands of Africa, from the beautiful amber waves of North America, from the roaring seas and the frozen tundra to this meeting with these artists here at Virginia Tech and, in fact, to wherever humans gather.

  There are philosophical phrases, theological phrases, scientific phrases, economic phrases, political phrases, phrases to explain and express. BUT

  there is one phrase that, if a phrase could be said to jump-start the human heart, we all know and love. Writers took up this phrase from the griots and soothsayers of old. As we began this journey with words, which is yet ever expanding our emotional and physical universe, we still find in our darkest hours and our most joyful moments the need to gather ’round the fire, or circle the wagons, or tuck into bed the young and the old with the enchantment of that magical phrase “Once Upon A Time . . . ” We know the storyteller has arrived. We comfort our spirits to think and dream. We know those other magical words will follow: In A Land Far Away . . . and our imaginations can soar safe within the hopes and sometimes the prayers.

  OUR JOB SAFETY IS YOUR PRIORITY WITH COFFEE

  I have written the essay below to help explain how I edit my poetry. I am more inclined to say I create a path through which I hope to take the reader rather than finding a perfect word to make the reader follow my thought. I have chosen a new poem: COFFEE because I actually did make a new pathway once I gave it a second or third look. I think the second version is an easier walk. I wrote to share my feelings about the edit.

  Job (Y)

  (Y)our Job Safety Is Our Priority: A Path for Poetry

  (should read “our job safety is your priority”

  but I cannot make my computer cross things out)

  A poem is not so much read as navigated. We go from point to point discovering a new horizon, a shift of light or laughter, an exhilaration of newness that we had missed before. Even familiar, or perhaps especially familiar, poems bring the excitement of first nighters, first encounters, first love . . . when viewed and reviewed.

  I’m not a big fan of adjust this line, change this word, add a this subtract a that. The poem like the kitten, like the tadpole, like the moth is and with time will mature to become. Sometimes it gets consumed to make another poem better—sometimes it simply is out in the world too long and dries up—sometimes a friendly scout seeing the struggle of the butterfly to break free from the cocoon decides to make the struggle easier and cuts her loose . . . call it an MFA program workshopping a poem too much. She falls to the ground, unable to soar because a doer of good deeds didn’t want to see the pain. Though now all that is left is a tenure-track position and the bitterness of tears shed for dreams not unwon but unchased.

  I like to think poems are maps—they don’t Google but rather guide us along the way. There is no destination on a country road. You see an old woman slightly bent moving through the field. A frisky calf frolicking. Sometimes a deer standing still. Why would there be a destination when life itself is a journey? You go not to get there but to be there.

  On my good days I like to think a glass of blanc de blanc (as real champagne is for movie stars and presidents), a bit of sun through the clouds, my backyard birds singing, the koi contentedly lazing through the pool, and Alex, my little Yorkie friend, and I are a country road. We meander, we laugh, we would like to love. We are a journey—a poem. Open us. Explore. Inhale. Wonder.

  COFFEE (original)

  Vitamin C prevents

  Colds

  A and D do sunshine

  Things

  We need calcium

  For strong bones

  There must be something

  For the eyes

  Carrots, Cabbage, Lettuce

  You never saw

  A blind rabbit

  And I have a friend

  Who thinks Salmon

  Will prevent

  A loss of your mind

  But I believe

  In Coffee

  Drip

  Percolated

  Pressed

  Coffee

  Black not sweet

  No cream

  Coffee

  Which smells like morning

  And feels like friendship

  Coffee

  While we laugh

  And preview

  Our day

  COFFEE (edited)

  Vitamin C prevents

  Colds

  A and D do sunshine

  Things

  We need Calcium

  For strong bones


  And

  There must be something

  For the eyes

  Carrots, Cabbage, Lettuce

  You never saw

  A blind rabbit

  And I have a friend

  Who thinks Salmon

  Will prevent

  A loss of your mind

  But I believe

  In Coffee

  Drip

  Percolated

  Pressed

  Coffee

  Black not sweet

  No cream

  Coffee

  Which smells like morning

  And feels like friendship

  Coffee

  While we laugh

  And preview

  Our day

  THE BROWN BOOKSHELF

  The Journey: The journey begins with the idea. It begins with a story. The journey is the step any writer takes to declare: I have something to say. I have a voice. I need to Use it. Since poetry is my vehicle on this journey, I chose to form my own publishing company and publish myself. I learned to set type, to bind, to cut. These skills are not necessary in the computer age, but they were then. Skills give us freedom. Freedom gives us wings.

  The Inspiration: I am a lover of history. It was Malcolm X who said: “Of all our endeavors, history is the most qualified to reward all research.” That may not be a totally accurate quote, but I remember being enchanted with heroes, with quests, with the search for the difficult and the unknown. Human beings are worthy of our interest. I continue to be fascinated by who we are and of which greatness we are capable.

  The Back Story: My latest book, Bicycles, evolved out of personal and professional sadness. A murder in the city in which I live and a massacre at the university at which I work formed the anchors of the book. But anchors are stationary and these two events kept spinning. It occurred to me that they were wheels. If that was the case then how could I connect them? Tragedy can only be calmed by love and laughter; I challenged myself to write love poems to connect the vents to the energy that was spinning. Once that journey was started, I realized if I put a handle on it I would have a Bicycle; hence my title. Love requires trust and balance. A perfect description of a bike.

  The Buzz: It is a pleasure to report Bicycles was well received.

  The State of the Industry: My very latest book is an anthology: The 100* Best African American Poems (*but I cheated). I cheated because I wanted to put more than just the 100 historical poems. That would take me from Phillis Wheatley to the Black Arts movement and maybe, if I pushed it, to Tupac, but I felt my obligation was to do more. So we numbered the book 1 to 100 but we stuffed poems into duets, and suites, communities, even. The book has 221 poems in all and I am very proud of that. I believe our job as both writers and editors is to keep pushing the envelope.

  INTERIOR VISION

  There has never been a time when human beings did not create art. We tend to say the Caveman painted the walls but that would be illogical: He was out either hunting or protecting the front of the cave. Cave woman drew on those walls to leave a record—some . . . one . . . was here. We began with the Egyptians to see representations of humans and to see drawings that could easily be explained as prayers for a benign God.

  People have also always sung . . . made noises that were either warning of danger or offering courtship. There will always be a need for song.

  But there will also always be a need for physical representation. For paintings, now photographs, soon only digital and maybe something else yet unknown but not so far away.

  Football is art. Almost a ballet. Reaching for the ball twirling down. Sprinting for the goal. Basketball is an art. Taking off midcourt and flying for a dunk. Black men made an art of walking. That thrust of hips, that gangsta lean. Folk saw that and wanted to throw their cars away.

  Black people are a work of art. In the deepest throes of slavery we found a tone to build upon that became The Negro Spiritual. They laughed. Nobody, they said, wanted to hear it. But we sang on. Sang to Gospel to make it jazz to make it rhythm and blues to have it stolen as rock to make it Rap. The only sound, besides jazz, that is heard all over this planet. Black Americans are wonderful. They laughed at Duke Ellington: called it Jungle Music. They said Marian Anderson couldn’t sing in the DAR building so she sang to the Heavens. They laughed at our poetry: said it was angry. They laughed at Rap: said it was dangerous.

  They don’t know what to make of the representational art today. It can be called Graffiti which in some eyes diminishes that art. No matter what they call it today, tomorrow they will call it Genius. Tomorrow they will teach classes about it; write books about it; give lectures on it. Folk will be awarded tenure for explaining why this line goes that way though of course only you and I know why. The artist felt it. The artist was true to herself; true to himself.

  There would be those who say you cannot do what you do; you need to please the masses. But for those of us outside The Magic Circle, the masses we serve, our ancestors, our communities, our prayers for a fairer future . . . we are pleasing. Good for us. Good for everybody who has stayed true to ourselves.

  Hip Hop Lives. And this art will live on as a testament to the beginning of the 21st Century. Alain Locke was correct when he said The Harlem Renaissance would define a great people because no people are great without great art. We are a great people.

  I GIVE EASILY

  I give

  easily

  because I have

  easily

  taken It’s incredibly

  difficult

  to let people

  give you what you need maybe

  as difficult as

  giving you what you want

  interactions

  with and between

  humans can certainly be

  complicated

  PEOPLE WHO LIVE ALONE

  People who live alone

  Fart in cars

  Pick their noses

  Sleep naked

  And never flush

  In the middle of the night

  Most people who live alone

  Are compulsive

  Things have to stay where

  Things were put

  People too

  Like there is no room

  In my heart for change

  Or hamburger that I don’t grind

  Or coffee that drips

  Or tears because

  People who live alone

  Soon learn

  It is all

  right

  BEFORE YOU JUMP OFF A BRIDGE OR HANG YOURSELF OR BE UNHAPPY PLEASE CONSIDER: LIVE FOR YOURSELF; THOSE WHO HATE YOU HAVE NO PURCHASE

  I don’t think

  There is

  a definition

  or

  b definition

  but only

  the definition

  when it comes to who you R

  but then I don’t

  Facebook or

  Twitter or

  YouTube or

  Ask anyone’s permission

  To fuck or not to fuck

  That is not the question

  To love or to be

  Lonely:

  No-brainer

  Who you are

  Is you

  And no one can

  Should

  Or

  Will

  Touch

  that

  YOU GAVE HER SOMETHING

  (for Big Nikky)

  You said: My aunt owned

  A building where she rented

  Apartments

  Like Macon Dead’s tenants sometimes

  They couldn’t pay

  Twice over the years the man

  Upstairs gave paintings

  Instead of money

  He said: Will you take this

  Will you take that

  For my staying in

  Your place here on earth

  And she said: Yes

  You said: I visited and loved

  Them both


  My aunt told me the story of the paintings

  They are extraordinary, I said to her

  She said: Take them. I want you to have them

  You carried these paintings

  From coast to coast South to less South

  To the walls of a warm and comforting home

  You said to me: Do you know the painter

  Do you know what they are now worth

  If I had known their worth I would have

  Should have given her something

  For them

  I said: You Did

  You love her You love the paintings

  If that’s not something

  Then I know nothing

  THIRST

  At 2:30 or maybe 3:00 A.M. I have tossed

  And turned all I can:

  I’m thirsty

  But if I get up to drink I’ll have to

  Get up again

  To go to the bathroom

  Thirst wins

  Stumbling into my house

  Shoes

  I go to the kitchen

  To find the lemonade

  My mother

  Were she still here

  Would complain:

  You don’t drink enough water.

  Adam’s Ale is the best thing

  But I don’t like water

  I, like most Americans,

  Take my water

  With sugar or fruit juices

  Or any disguise I can find

  Leaning over the sink

  With a bit of real lemonade dripping down

  My chin

  I feel the coolness

  Float into my lungs

  And that blessed relief

  That says Thirst

  Has been satisfied

  Feeling myself once again in bloom

  I smile

  Return to my bed

  And await my next

  Adventure.

  THE SCARED AND THE VULNERABLE

  On a foggy night

  With that sort of misty rain

  That is wonderful for sleeping

  But nothing at all for driving

  I traveled home

  From a great dinner party

  We were all so jolly

  Driving my ninety-year-old aunt

  Who was visiting from out of town